The title of this blog is actually pretty clear - which is in fact why I picked it.
The whole purpose was to get me into the habit of writing on a daily basis. This seemed time intense, but not that tough, as there was a lot on my mind that I wanted to share. Why? Because I thought I have a lot to share and perspectives and mind habits/tricks others can improve their life with as well.
It started out quite well and my first two weeks or so went by without any problems. It was rather a physical challenge, since I missed out on some sleep, but I never had a problem with having a 'thought' for that day.
This is now almost a year ago.
Since then also #personaldevelopment #personalgrowth #lifelearning and a lot of other similar categories got even more volume that they already had. Additionally to that I got into an environment where people are not really appreciating this kind of mindset and thus are not engaging with it. Usually I like to have that conversation and learn from other people how they handle their lives.
With the ones currently around me, anger, dissatisfaction, being emotionally unbalanced/ruled, violent communication, etc are more common than I am used to. But, to be honest, they are also pretty bright, funny and good people at their core and hell, I am far from saying that anyone has figured life out. Maybe one never will. As long as one is balanced with oneself I think the more you are in peace with yourself, the more you are in peace with others.
I am probably missing the more human, spiritual way of looking at things - or how they coined it for me #softshit. The thing is, this can also be applied to high performance environments. It is also just about attitude, being able to understand your own feelings and being able and willing to communicate those in a clear way.
Dishonesty, hiding, talking behind people's back is not an environment I flourish. This sounds quite bad now and it is far from being black. I just noticed about myself that the moment I actually learned about all this stuff, I got super sensitive to it and it now has a more draining effect than it had when I didn't know about it.
Coming back to the beginning of the post. I got sucked in into a life that was not me. I didn't meet a lot of new people, I didn't meet with people I know on a frequency level I am used, other things occupied my mind that I didn't spend time on developing myself with articles, side projects, books, writing, positivity etc. Instead I established my bad habits again, like watching Suits for the 5th time - congrats, idiot!
I am somehow afraid of feel embarrassed to talk about all this personal development, habit etc stuff, because hardly anyone around me actually thinks the same way.
I need to establish my own mindset again and make space to let it sink in again until it becomes my base again. I just want to feel good, do sports, meet/get to know good people, travel, enjoy life, eat healthy, laugh, get new experiences, don't worry, improve and build something other people can use. On top of that, I kind of need to feeling of improving a lot and in the end being location and financially independent and beat the 'normal track of life'.
Am I there? No. But writing this post definitely got me closer. Namaste.